Beach Days.

it's like laying in the warm sand while the sun beams down on you making you feel...
relaxed, beautiful, toasty.
you're my sunshine on that beach, this is how you make me feel.

Killer...

it was blaring through the trunk speakers.
i used to hate it when you sang it to me...well so i made it seem.
when deep down i was feeling it every got-damn time.
i wanted you to sing it over and over and over again.
"i'm a mutha fucking KILLER"
ahh especially since your voice is just the right tone of deepness...wooo given me chills.
who knows of you'll ever sing that song ever again to me...but remembering it was pleasant.

just have this sense of giving up on something i been chasing for so long, i'm used to chasing and getting what i want...but this time it was different. i ended up with something yes...but it wasn't anything more anyhow. i still appreciate the fact that i got you anyways... :)

my love for my other half knows no bounders... ♥

- Aubrey Hope-Lynn Winter.

Seek No More...

thoughts racing, tension collides

and i’m doing this all with my wide eyes

why the fuck do they begin to flood, the the fuck do i begin to bleed

this is what i’m craving for, this is what i need

lay down, LAY DOWN, just put your body flat out

i do it every time cause i have no doubt

NO, I WANT THIS…I FUCKING WANT THIS.

am i fucking twisted? i barely even tasted it

right there, right there. my word it’s right there

it slipped away now…too complicated to bare

i’m going nuts over it…wanting, needing…

but forget it all now, the one i was seeking….

i seek no more….

Deep Thought...

so i'm laying there. tears linger in my eyes. they do not fall
the floor is cold but from i can make there's a warmth coming from in between my legs.
what's done is done. many times before have a felt this feeling.
am i annoyed by this feeling? no. it's whatever
that's how i'm looking at "this" as a whatever thing
but i shouldn't be...basically what's left of my innocence is on the line here...
they come in all the time. having me feel no ways when in comes down to it now..
i'm out of sync...my hormones are basically kinda calm, but ready to bounce...
this is a part of growing up right? just basically brushing off what little girls would make such a big deal over. nahh... not me...so why do i lay on the icy floor, eyes all glossy just feeling this warmth?

i'm in deep thought.

if i got all if it out right now..i think we'd be here for days...

- Aubrey

Herself...Is Missing

she sits, in dark with dim, next to nothing light
tears fill her eyes like rain in plain site
she's hurting, never letting go of the pain
she relives it all over again
it can't escape her, if you really think about it it's all she ever knew
abuse, it began to grow, she knows it's true
she wasn't to erase, but she knows this time it isn't paper
and the reason she thinks this all happened is because her blood hates her
it runs threw her, so she leaks it
she can't stand it, so from her soul she bleeps it
for a little while though, but just like snow storm, it comes to brighten her up
this is reality though, what is it doing right now...literally cuttin her up
no one knows the true feelings as to what plays in her insides.
but what more can she do...all she ever does is cry
her friends, hate seeing her like this, but there's little they feel they can do or say
and she can't control herself anymore...anything they say makes her snap this way
she cries till she can't breathe
screams till there's no voice
but her feelings think "does she really have a choice"
everything comes hard, hits her faster then bullets
she thought everything will ease up...until this
she's losing...the battle
herself...is missing

can anybody out there see her?
cause she can't seem to see herself anymore....

Morning Verse...

given up on me. yea i seem to think so.

nothing worst then this low blow

it's a no go, no where to put my words

since basically all my crap is for the birds.

haha. seem to try, seem to figure

nothing feels better right then pullin the trigger

then have it left to linger

on all of your shoulders.

they say "this is just part of life, you're getting older"

ya yea life a game to me. just gotta fight it.

all these wrongs i gotta right them.

all these chains i gotta break them.

all this pain, can you take them?

funny how they're right there but they feel so far away.

guess i'm truly on my own now, no one is ment here to stay...

thanks for giving up on me..

- Hope

something i do i guess.

his brother called me “Hope” cause i brought it to the team

so now i gotta bring it, make it come out like how it seems

the difference between getting money and getting creamed is

the part where you lose and the moment where you drop the bizz

i’m shy i know, building stacks? hell no…

but i’m getting there, steady, tryna show them that i’m ready

to do this, do me…let go of all this misery

cut off all the stress, no more hide behind the shadows

this is Aubrey, your Hope, which i hold…