Jazmine Sullivan - Holding You Down (Goin' In Circles)

I Shouldn't Be This Unhappy....

i really shouldn't.

- A.

yea yay me

so it's was only two days and i failed. whatever.
and it's not the fact that i wanted to use the computer, it's the fact that me and alone-ness doesn't really mix all the time. it's the only way i communicate with people besides the phone. i'm not really a phone person with everyone...just a few. so now i'm broke, again and stuck at home.

life is sweet.
not..


- A.

What Does That Say?

why settle for less? i remember him telling me that. funny thing is that he was the one i was settling for. so what does that say...

committed to doing this

i will me M.I.A. for maybe a little over a week. no computer period and no phone unless i really need to know something. time to lock myself off from people. i don't care if we batty and bench i need time and space. i'm tired yo. just take it as it is..i'm going through too much.


- A.

Don't Worry About Me....
and if i don't answer your call a first time, DON'T YOU DARE RING OFF MY PHONE. it won't make me wanna pick up, i'll MAKE my mother be rude. not an issue....

NOTE TO FRIENDS.

so no one is coming to support me, at least the ones that i wanted to be there. i excuse the ones that have work and work only. let me make something clear since i'm already pissed. when i have another dance thing coming up...and trust there will be more. i will NEVER ask you guys to come again. since i been with NLDS only MY WIFE SHARON has come out to see me. NO ONE ELSE. it's all good cause when the rest of y'all have something big and what me to come....IMMA BE THERE. you know why? CAUSE I'M A GOOD FRIEND. BUT DON'T EVER COUNT ON MY TO EVER TELL YOU TO COME OUT TO ANY OF MY EVENTS EVER AGAIN. you guys don't realize that i may not be the sickest most ill dancer, but it's the least you can do...S U P P O R T me....what's so hard in that. i tell you guys a good two weeks a head of ttime "yo i got a dance thing coming up, why don't you come" tell you the day y'all say we'll see...then y'all make plans...LIKE WTF. it's OKAAAAAY THOUGH.




just remember what was said.


- A.

I'm Yelling At You

smashing phones and breaking glass - I've put my feelings through too much
you do not seem to get the fact of this here....here being me
lemme try and break it down for you.

i see passed you. i never said this before but i see passed these chicks you talk about, i see passed this money you talk about. all that shit means nothing to me. cause all i see is you. YOU. like wtf, stop asking me to explain, stop asking to know why. i told you, and since you can't see what i do either i feel there's no point.

there was this one dude i used to digg as much as i digg you. i messed that up, i never intended for THIS to end up as it is. me and him don't even speak yo. i rarely feel this strong about some nigga AND THEN YOU COME WITH THIS.

wait wait. why am i bothering? i can't force you to see something your mot willing to look at. i bet it's how i look. yeaaa. or maybe how i act? hmmm. i can guess all the questions in the world and i'll never know. do you ever show me these type of things? whatever, i'm yelling at you, wanna know why.

cause i know say when it comes down to the point where i wanna move on you're going to come at me with some sob story like last time. but this time i won't fucking hear it. i'll still be there for you like i always am, always will be. you'll vent to me whatever. but my guy issues will NEVER BE SPOKEN ON. God is my witness. doesn't matter what i tell you or how, i'll never hear me or see me for what i do anyways.

chase what's pain, but delightfulness is right at your doorstep...well was...

- A.