I'm Sorry

for the past, the present, and the future.

i'm crazy k?

Against All Odds

How can I just let you walk away, just let you leave without a trace

When I stand here taking every breath with you, ooh

You're the only one who really knew me at all

How can you just walk away from me, when all I can do is watch you leave

Cos we've shared the laughter and the pain, and even shared the tears

You're the only one who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now, 'cos there's just an empty space

And there's nothing left here to remind me, just the memory of your face

Take a look at me now, 'cos there's just an empty space

And you coming back to me is against all odds and that's what I've got to face

I wish I could just make you turn around, turn around and see me cry

There's so much I need to say to you, so many reasons why

You're the only one who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now, 'cos there's just an empty space

And there's nothing left here to remind me, just the memory of your face

Take a look at me now, 'cos there's just an empty space

But to wait for you, well that's all I can do and that's what I've got to face

Take a good look at me now, 'cos I'll still be standing here

And you coming back to me is against all odds

That's the chance I've got to take, oh, oho

Just take a look at me now

Vistoso Bosses - More Than Glitter

I Just Don't Care.

where do i start. hmmm.
one, i had the worst night ever, i couldn't cry till i ready to sleep. never happens. a lot of things that never happened have happened too. can you believe it? two, i think i'm done with this whole "express" shit. i'm starting to realize that when i do, does anything ever go anywhere? three, a friend told me that i was becoming heartless because a certain situation didn't phase me. usually shit like that would make me go crazy, but i'm so chill on it right now that it's scaring me shitless...

yeah this may be "expressing" now, take it for what you want. (Favorite saying) i could care less right now.

i feel that my doing this whole "expressing" things shows some sort of weakness. when you say what's on your mind, people take advantage of what's eating you right now and they run with it. i don't want friends, i don't want anyone to pay me any mind in any way, shape or form because i'm not allowed to do it with others anyways. i don't want openness, and i don't wanna be open either. if you can't open up to me then why should i? i don't wanna fall in love of lust or whatever people "think" i'm feeling. it hurts way to much and brings too much stress.

these are all the things i wanted in some lifetime ago but

I  C O U L D  C A R E  L E S S  A N Y M O R E!

i don't wanna be me, everybody hates how i do me. they think i'm soo...as a matter of fact i don't care.
i'm done with crying, i'm done with everything. my life now; eat, sleep, school. straight. i've never been in-tune with myself that i'm too fed up to even try and get to that point. seems that hurt loves me so i might as well play that game...

it's what i'm used to...

- Janelle

Lonely

I see a woman walking with her man 
man with his woman
Smiling as they stroll into this little bar
As they kiss each other holding hands
I get sick to my stomach
So jealous of how f*ing happy they are
lucky B*stards
There's a couple different people I could call right now
But the one I'm wanting don't want me at all right now
And that hurts
through my heart, my mind, and my soul
Rolling in this cab
writing on the window


Y, L, E, N, O, L
As I roll past you in this taxi cab
If you care at all
that means I'm lonely
Y, L, E, N, O, L
As I roll past you in this taxi cab
If you care at all
That means I'm lonely

What am I supposed to do now
Rolling round, feeling like a fool now
Crying like a b*it*h in the back of this taxi cab
So used to it
Driver tries to ask if I'm alright
I say "Never mind, mind your business and just drive dammit
You don't know nothing about how I feel right now, let me spell it out"


Y, L, E, N, O, L
As I roll past you in this taxi cab
If you care at all, that means I'm lonely
Y, L, E, N, O, L
As I roll past you in this taxi cab
If you care at all
That means I'm lonely




Explaining my situation to the only one that will understand, but i'm too blind to see that he knows everything....
told me i'm becoming heartless...
i dislike that word, but it could fit the way i feel now.


"just throw it all away. especially me, i'm so used to that shit you have no clue...
just another piece of trash that's been used. aha!"


- Aubrey

Trust...Lies...

i just don't wanna talk, i just don't wanna speak
hearing my own little thoughts is starting to make me freak.


T R U S T. . . ?
where are you?
i can't see, clear the smoke i can't pass through
steady kicking rocks up my way
but this? where can it really stay?
not here, i'm known to fumble
and when it happens, i watch it all crumble
my world, when someone leaves that i care about most.
they take a little...no a BIG piece of me
then i become dim, never again can i just be
crying and smashing things,
biggest hobbies when i lose things


L I E S . . . ?
you enter like a disease
killing everything in it's path and taking away what's real
you faker then breast implants
starching the scars so they have no time to heal
the dirt
you don't care, you love the hurt


cause see that's what lies do. they take away the truthful pain you know you will receive
not knowing is some sort of relief
but the truth,
can so call set you free.


you pick.
clearly my mind is not really over this...








"Every body talks, and every body listens. But somehow the truth just always comes up missing..." - Drake

Yuh Know Weh Mi Nuh Like?

the fact that you know me.
i mean  KNOW ME, KNOW ME.

know me like how family is suppose to know
& as bad as i try not to let it show,
you know me like kids know t.v.
you stare, i catch it sometimes, but never say a thing.
wouldn't want to make the moment awkward, i love the feeling.


i'm too...messed to finish..

- Aubrey